Delusional Confidence

Recently, I climbed a mountain. On the mountain, I admitted to my daughter and her friend that I was in utter awe of confidence; and the power of what I affectionately call delusional confidence. “Like climbing a mountain without knowing what to expect, but trusting you have what it takes to do it,” I said. 

We all laughed knowing how much harder the mountain was to climb than we expected. 

Delusional confidence is not delusional at all, it just might seem delusional to others because it is unusual. I marvel at confidence because it propels us to unimaginable levels. Delusional confidence is a catalyst for doing extraordinary things in this lifetime, every day.

A year or so ago, I remembered the light inside of me.  Essentially, I had dimmed my light. At first it was just a little; To fit in, to feel less vulnerable. I had dimmed my light so low I could feel my gifts slipping away. 

Today, as I have reached fifty, my confidence has returned. It was a giant leap - more than one - that took me to each step. Much like climbing Camelback Mountain. My daughter and her friend asked me to lead them up the mountain that day. I think their reason to have me lead them was because I was almost fifty. They thought they better put me in front. So I carefully placed my hands. Each foot placement was chosen to safely get us one step closer to the top of the mountain. While I calculated our steps, the mountain had already provided the path. 

Confidence is synonymous with trust. If confidence is powerful enough to thrust us into our very best life, then trust is almost too difficult to speak of if you’re like me.

If you're like me, at some point, you may not have known what it was like to truly feel loved. You may have followed your heart into places you had to back out of, leaving some part of you ashamed.

I hope this message helps bridge a gap. There is a light inside all of us. To trust that we are loved in every moment - in every high and every low; Seems like delusional confidence.